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Fairy_Kisses82 Admin
Posts : 54 Join date : 2009-11-11 Age : 41 Location : Anywhere Adam is
| Subject: Working Through Wed Nov 11, 2009 12:46 pm | |
| Chapter One
A lot of things weren’t getting through to Adam. He could feel the small uncomfortable plastic chair digging into his thighs and the smaller hand that gripped his just a little too tight but nothing else was getting in. He was numb.
“Mr Lambert it seems you’re husband was speeding. He’s luckily to be alive.” The police officer stood over him as he spoke. “It’s lucky there was no one else on the road at that time of the morning.” Adam doesn’t care about other people. He doesn’t care that his husband was speeding, but he can’t bring himself to answer the police officer. He just nods his head and looks to his right for help.
“Well thank you officer but as you know my son hasn’t woken yet so I really don’t know what my son in law can tell you. If you would just give us some time.” Guilt. Adam now feels guilt. He did know something, he knew why Kris was driving so fast at 5 in the morning.
“When he wakes up...” The Police Officer asks.
“Well call.” Kris’s father stood behind the police officer his face filled with so much anger it almost made Adam jealous, at least his father in law was feeling something. Adam watched as the police officer walked away leaving Adam alone with his in law’s.
“You need to sleep honey.” How thought Adam, how exactly could he close his eyes and not see Kris.
“Not until he wakes up.” Adam’s voice was shaky and raw, the lump in his throat causing so much tension there he was afraid to swallow it.
“How about a walk to the nursery with me?” Kris’s father asked with gentleness. “She’s really beautiful.” Guilt again. He’d completely forgotten the reason for his frantic 5 am phone call to Kris. The reason he was now laying in a hospital bed broken.
Flashback.
Adam took a step back looking at his feet in disgust. “Did you just?.....”
“My waters broke.” Came the frantic cry from the young teenager in front of him. This was it Adam thought eight months of waiting came to this.
Adoption had never really entered Adam’s mind until he met and fell in love with Kris. When Kris told him how much he wanted children Adam had willingly agreed to adopt as soon as they married. Little over a year later Kris received a phone call from his mother telling him about a young fifteen year old she knew that had gotten pregnant and was looking for a married couple to adopt her unborn child. Adam had been on tour at the time but had flown home first chance he could to meet with the girl and agree to it. Now eight months later he had woken early leaving his husband in bed to go pick up the girl from the airport and bring her home to where should be staying for the last month of her pregnancy. He had only placed her bags in the back of the car when he turned and walked right into a puddle on the ground. It was a mad dash to the local hospital and a phone call to Kris telling him to hurry. He had told him to hurry but he had forgotten to tell him to be careful. Adam never let Kris go anywhere without telling him to be safe and this one time he had forgot.
“I forgot about her.” He admitted to his father in law. “I forgot about my own daughter.” Guilt again but at least now he was feeling something.
“I’ve been taking good care of her for you but I really think she needs a hug from her daddy.” Adam nodded mutely but made no attempt to move.
“I’ll stay with Kris honey.” Adam smiled at his mother in law before standing and following in father in law out the family room.
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Adam felt everything now. Every emotion he could feel was running through him while he held his daughter in his arms. Her tiny little body fit perfectly in the nap of his arm and even though it wasn’t possible she reminded him of Kris. “She’s so tiny.” He tried to hide the pain in his voice but the slight shake still appeared.
“Call me crazy but she reminds me of Kris. Same tiny features.” Adam had to laugh, It was true.
“Kris wanted to call the baby Sophia if she was a girl. He said every Sophia he had met had been beautiful.” Adam looked up at his father in law for some sort of answer but the older man could only nod as he wiped away his tears.
“You tell anyone I cried I’ll sell those photos of you dressed up in that Christmas jumper to all the magazines.” The older man threatened with a smile.
“Oh please you cry all the time.”
“Yea but there’s a bet going around town that I would cry the day my first grandchild was born.”
“So let it be our little secret.” Adam whispered softly as he felt the baby stir in his arms, the realisation that his father in law with him and not Kris the first time he saw his daughter suddenly hit him. They were supposed to be doing this together, there were countless petty agreements on who would hold her first and now Adam was doing it alone. “Thanks for......”
“I wouldn’t be anywhere else.” Neil interrupted before Adam could finish.
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Adam stood at the door of the nursery and watched as both sets of grandparents gushed over the new born. Only a few hours old and she already had them wrapped around her finger. Kris still hadn’t woken up and the doctors really weren’t saying much only that it took time and he needed to rest. Adam snuck out the nursery quietly the urge to see Kris becoming too strong to resist. As he walked along the white corridors listening as other families chatted away happily to patients and doctors worked silently around him he thought of his fame. For four years he had been a professional singer, three of those years he had been an international superstar after the release of his first album and at this moment all that fame and success meant nothing. It wasn’t helping him. It wasn’t making his husband wake up or making the doctors find miracle cures for him. It was useless and it was making him feel useless.
He stopped outside Kris’s private room, the only thing his fame had been used for, he steadied himself before pushing open the door. He had been in and out the room all day and had seen his husbands bruised and bloody face but it was still a shock to him each time. But this time instead of seeing his husbands face when he opened the door he was meant with a pair of familiar brown eyes.
“Neil?.” Adam moved inside the room closing the door as he walked towards his younger brother. “I thought you were in New York?”
“I flew out the moment mom called.” Neil walked forward pulling Adam into his arms, even though they were the same height Neil’s slimmer frame still made the hug a little awkward but since Kris came into his life Adam was used to awkward hugs. In fact he loved them now. “You ok?” Neil quizzed pulling back to look into Adam’s eyes.
“It’s just... It’s.” Adam knew the moment he saw Neil his tough image would fall to pieces, he had never been able to hide anything from his younger brother. “It’s the worst day and the best day of my life and I don’t know what the hell I’m doing.”
“Well what would Kris want you to do?” Adam looked over his brother’s shoulder to see his husband laying lifeless on the bed. “What would Kris do to help you right now? Pretend I’m him.” Adam knew he shouldn’t but a small smirk spread across his face as he looked at his brother. “Aw come on.” Neil complained as he struggled out of Adam’s arms.
“I’m sorry it’s what he does when I’m upset.” Adam smiled. It was the first time all day he had felt any kind of lightness.
“Yea well remind me not to give you any bad news. You probably go around looking for it just so you can get some from you’re husband.”
“Please like I need an excuse to have hot sex with my hot husband.” Neil’s screwed up face in disgust causing Adam to laugh out loud.
“Too much info?”
“I’m going to go see my new Niece.” Neil gave Adam one last hug before leaving him alone with Kris. The only sound being heard was the beeping of the heart machine in the corner.
“So your going to lay there all day. I mean come on it’s time you opened those eyes.” The nurse had told Adam earlier that talking normal to Kris could help to wake up faster. He had felt stupid at first but as he watched his father in law go on and go for over and hour about how beautiful his new grand daughter was Adam had gave in and joined in on the pointless chatter. “Hey remember that time in New York when we had the weekend off. You insisted we go and see the city and I insisted you get naked and stay in bed with me. I think you slept for a full twenty four hours after that little roll about in the bed.” Adam looked around the dark room making sure they were alone before leaning over and pressing his mouth to Kris’s ear. “You looked so hot laying there all sweaty after I was done with you.” Adam gripped Kris’s hand tight in his own. “If you don’t start responding to me soon I’ll have to start talking dirty to you. All those nurses will hear. Are you going to respond to me baby?” Adam pulled back to look at his husbands face. Letting out a tired sigh when he saw no change at all he threw himself back against the hard plastic chair. “You’re not being fair you know. This was supposed to be the happiest day of our life’s and you go and fuck it up by crashing you’re car.” Adam felt a lone tear fall down his cheek slowly. “You’ve really fucking done it now. When you wake up I’m so going to yell at you.” The tears began falling freely now as Adam tried to wipe them away. “You better hurry the fuck up and get out this bed cause I’m not going to be spending to much time here. We’ve got a kid to look after now so if you’re not willing to open you’re eyes then fuck you. I’ll do it on me own. You going to open you’re eyes?” Adam gave up trying to wipe away the tears instead letting them fall freely onto his and Kris’s clasped hands. “Open you’re eyes.” He yelled through gritted teeth. “Open you’re eyes. Kristopher open you’re eyes now or I’m walking out. Open..just open you’re eyes now. Kris please. Please baby just open them for me. Open you’re eyes baby” He was now sobbing weakly his head resting on Kris’s arm as he finally let himself fall apart. | |
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Fairy_Kisses82 Admin
Posts : 54 Join date : 2009-11-11 Age : 41 Location : Anywhere Adam is
| Subject: Re: Working Through Wed Nov 11, 2009 12:48 pm | |
| Chapter two
Adam made his way towards Kris’s hospital room with the small pink bundle huddled closely to his chest. He had ignored his mother’s pleas and was finally taking Sophia to meet her Daddy. Three horrible days had passed since her birth and Kris had still not woken or shown any signs of improving and while the doctors around them saw no reason to worry Adam had been losing hope fast. Now with Sophia being allowed home he had finally brought her to Kris. He hadn’t wanted it to happen this way he wanted Kris awake so he could see his eyes light up at the first sight of their daughter just like his own had three days earlier.
Kris lay motionlessly in bed like he had every other time Adam entered the room. Leila, Adam’s Mom sat in her usual seat at the side of his bed her hand holding Kris’s gently while she read from her favourite book of the moment.
“You know I don’t agree to this Adam.” Leila said keeping her eyes focused on the book in front of her. “And Kris wouldn’t either. He wouldn’t want her seeing him like this. You’ve been very sneaky doing it while everyone else is away.” Adam ignored his mothers rant and took the seat opposite her on the other side of Kris’s bed.
“Hey baby look what I brought.” He could hear his mothers disapproving sigh. “Apparently you wouldn’t agree to this but then when have I ever done as I was told.” Adam tried his best to keep his voice light and calm like the doctors had told him but every time his idol chit chat was met with silence all he wanted to do was break down and cry. “Well here she is. Sophia Lambert –Allen. Beautiful isn’t she baby? Sophia this is your Daddy.”
“Adam.”
“Mom please.” Adam looked up into his mothers eyes. “Please.”
Leila could only nod as she stood and made her way towards the door. “I’ll go see if Neil’s ready to take you home.” Adam waited till his mother was out the door before looking back down at his husband. “I love her baby I do but I swear that woman was sent here to drive me crazy. Anyway” Adam stood leaning over Kris’s still body with Sophia held close to him. “Sorry I haven’t brought her sooner but I wanted you awake for this. She’s going home today.” Adam explained as he placed Sophia onto Kris’s bare chest. Sophia wiggled around a little till she was comfortable enough. Adam placed both of Kris’s hands over the baby’s tiny body while his own hands rested on top of Kris’s. “Now that’s better.” Adam swallowed the lump forming in his throat as he watched his baby’s eyes shut over. “See. All she wanted was her Daddy.” Adam sat back down on the chair leaning his body over the bed to rest his chin on Kris’s shoulder. “You should really see her baby, she’s gorgeous. I didn’t think she could be this beautiful, this perfect.” Adam sighed tiredly. “They’re making me go home. Your Mom and the others. They think I need to go home. I told them I was fine but will they listen? But then if Sophia has to go I really should make sure she has everything. But I’ll be back tonight once she’s asleep I’ll be back I promise.”
“Adam?” Adam jumped at the sound of his name being called. “Adam Neil’s ready.” Adam looked up to see his father standing at the door smiling at him. It had been the same fake smile the other man had been wearing for days now. Every time Adam looked at him he was wearing it.
“Just one minute Dad.” Adam could now feel his stomach sinking. He had been dreading this for hours now he knew he had to leave but he just wanted Kris to be awake for it. He didn’t want to get outside the hospital and have Kris open his eyes. Adam needed to be the first person Kris saw, he wanted the younger man to know that he was there no matter what. “You’re going to have to let me take this one home now baby.” He squeezed both Kris’s hands with his own. “I don’t want to but I don’t think they would let us keep her here.” Picking the sleeping baby up off of his husband’s chest Adam felt a rush of guilt running through his body. When Sophia’s body began to wiggle against his own and her cries began to fill the room he felt his own tears forming. “I don’t want to take her away from you but I have to. You’re not waking up. If you would just open your damn eyes we could all go home together and I wouldn’t have to sit in this horrible room one more minute.” As Sophia’s cries grew louder Adam’s grew stronger. “Can you hear that Kris? That’s your baby crying. She’s crying and you’re just laying there doing nothing about it. Why won’t you do anything about it?” Adam felt a pair of hands gripping his shoulders tightly as his body shook in sobs.
“Shh Adam shh. You’re scaring her.” More guilt rushed through him as Neil took the baby screaming baby from his arms.
“I...I can’t do this Neil I can’t leave him.” Adam looked over at Kris’s still body and began sobbing again. “Why is he just laying there? Why isn’t he waking up? Does he not care or something. Is that what it is, he just doesn’t give a damn about me?”
“Adam please don’t do this to yourself.” Neil’s hands were now free of Sophia as he placed both his hands back onto Adam’s shoulders. He stood behind him with his chin resting on his older brother’s shoulder. “You think he wants to hear you like this? Look at him. He’s sick Adam, he needs rest and you screaming at him won’t make him wake up any quicker. And when he does wake up you think seeing you like this is going to help him get better.” Neil turned Adam to face him. “Now the cars ready, Dad’s putting Sophia in her seat so I’m going to let you say sorry to your husband for shouting then I want you out front in five. Okay?” Neil leaned in to kiss Adam’s forehead before pulling back. “Okay?”
“Okay.” Adam turned back to Kris feeling guilty once again. “Did you just hear my baby brother actually making sense?” Adam laughed. “You know the world has gone crazy when he’s the one making sense.” Adam sighed running his hand through his hair. “But I guess he’s right, I shouldn’t be shouting at you. I should wait till you’re awake to do it.” Another laugh escaped Adam’s mouth. “Then I’m so kicking your ass. And you know I can.” Adam let the silence fill the room as he closed his eyes. His head had been throbbing for days now and nothing he had done could take it away. The only thing that had ever worked at always been Kris’s head massages it had always beat any kind of pain killer in Adam’s eyes. “I guess it’s time then. I should get Sophia home. Maybe shower, I don’t think I’ve done that in a few days. I know I’ve been in these clothes since I came.” Adam looked down at himself with disgust. “You wouldn’t want me if you saw me now. I really should clean myself up, there’s some cute looking doctors running around. I wouldn’t want any of them catching your eye.” Adam let out another soft laugh. “Can you tell I’m rambling? I don’t want to leave you so I’m talking complete crap. Hey you remember our second date?” Adam rested his head on Kris’s chest as he looked up at his face. “You were wearing one of the many plaid shirts you own and I was looking pretty good in my leather jeans. After it was over we sat in your car for over an hour just trying to say goodbye. I was so desperate not to leave you that I think I actually talked about the weather. Then you just looked at me and said I won’t think you’re some sort of slut if you ask me to stay. So I said stay and you haven’t left yet.” Adam brushed his dry lips over Kris’s chest as he made his way up. “Stay. There I’m saying it again Stay Kris.”
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It all felt oddly comforting to be home again even if Kris wasn’t with him. He could feel him all around, smell him on everything he touched and even though Kris wasn’t there Adam felt comfort.
“Right so Sophia’s clothes are all put away I’ve made your bed and cleared the kitchen out.” Neil stood in front of Adam with Sophia in his arms.
“She suits you.” Adam remarked with a smirk causing Neil to push Sophia into Adam’s arms.
“Oh hell no she’s the only kid I plan to be holding any time soon.” Adam adjusted Sophia in his arms as he walked off giggling to himself. He could always trust Neil to put a smile on his face even when his world was falling apart.
“Your uncle Neil is a very silly man baby.” Adam told Sophia as he walked through the house with her. “But then with a good looking big brother like me he had to be the funny one.” Stopping inside his bedroom and paused to look at the bed he and Kris shared. “I’m sorry your Daddy isn’t here baby I guess he’s just a little tired right now. But when he wakes up he’s going to cover you in kissing not let you go till you’re eighteen.” Adam placed Sophia on the middle of the bed then lay himself down beside her. “He’s going to take you to the park and play lots of games with you and when you’re sad your Daddy’s going to wrap you up in his arms and hold you till you’re happy again because that’s what he does. That’s what he does when I’m sad and he’s going to do it with you too.” Sophia’s tiny hand came up to Adam’s face causing him to pause and kiss it gentle. “And when those boys start coming around your Daddy’s going to be there with his baseball bat ready for them. And you’re going to be running to me complaining about him and how mean he is but deep down you’ll know it’s because he loves you and is never going to let anyone hurt you. He’s so good baby, everything he does is for the people he loves and he’s going to love you the most. You’re going to be the one that holds his heart the most and I’m the lucky one that gets to be second.” Adam sighed looking up at the ceiling. “He just has to open his eyes baby.”
“Adam It’s Mom.” Neil came running in with the phone in his hand.
“Mom?” Adam held the phone to his ear. “Mommy.” He choked out.
“Hey baby.” Came the weak voice of his husband’s. | |
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Fairy_Kisses82 Admin
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| Subject: Re: Working Through Wed Nov 11, 2009 12:49 pm | |
| Chapter three
The door to Kris’s hospital was closed shut as Adam approached with Sophia clutched close to his chest. It had taken exactly twenty-three minutes to bundle Sophia into her car seat and race back towards the hospital while trying to be careful but now that he was facing the closed door he couldn’t make himself walk inside. Instead he chose to stand silently outside with Sophia in his arms his eyes fixed on the closed white door.
“Adam?” Neil Allan’s voice broke the silence Adam had created around him.
“He sounded different.” Adam turned to look at his father in law. “On the phone he sounded different like he wasn’t himself. He didn’t sound like himself. What if he’s different?” Adam moved away from the door quickly like it was going to burn him. “I couldn’t cope if he’s different Neil.”
“Adam” Neil sighed reaching out for his son in law but Adam moved away quickly.
“No Neil. I’ve read about this. People wake up and are suddenly not themselves. What if he’s not himself anymore?”
“Well you’re not going to find anything out just standing here all day. Go and see him.” Neil answered his son in law matter of fact.
“But what if.......”
“No Adam.” Neil interrupted harshly. “Just go and see your husband. He’s waiting for you.” Removing Sophia from Adam’s arms Neil walked quickly away before Adam had time to answer him. Adam watched as his father in law disappeared around the corner with Sophia before turning back towards the white door.
It was another few moments of silence before Adam brought up the courage to open Kris’s hospital room door. The room was still dark like before but the beeping of the heart machine had gone leaving the room completely quiet. It took Adam a few seconds for his eyes to adjust to the darkness and find Kris, seeing Kris laying in the bed just like before with his eyes shut. He hadn’t expected this he had expected Kris’s eyes to be open when he entered the room. Taking small steps towards the bed Adam took a shaky breath as his husband’s chest raised and fell all on its own.
“So you’re still not bored with the sleeping yet?” Adam asked as he sat down taking Kris’s hand in his own. A rush of silliness washed over him realising Kris was now actually sleeping and now in a medicated coma.
Adam felt a sudden rush of tiredness wash over him as he again let the silence surround him. Laying his head on his husbands chest he calmed himself hearing the younger mans heart beating strongly against his ear. He lay like this for a long time and it wasn’t until he felt a gentle hand stroking his back did he lift his head.
“Hey baby.” Just hearing those two words again caused Adam to weep. Pressing his face into Kris’s chest Adam allowed himself to break. Kris for his part held Adam’s head in his hands pressing it closer to him and allowed the older man to cry.
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Adam lay with his head on Kris’s stomach looking up at the younger man as Kris ran his fingers weakly through Adam’s thick hair.
“You’re beautiful.” Kris whispered. The only words any of them had uttered in over an hour. “Panda eyes and all.” He added with a smirk as he wiped away the smudged eyeliner from Adam’s cheek.
“Are you real?” Adam asked with a shy smile on his face.
“Kiss me and find out.” Kris tugged at Adam’s hair till the older man moved up slowly towards his face.
“I don’t want to hurt you.” Adam confused quietly.
“Not kissing me will hurt more.”
Adam took a few seconds to study Kris’s face before letting his lips press against the younger mans. The kiss was gentle and timid at first with both men letting the other taking the lead but as Kris’s fingers dug deeper into Adam’s scalp Adam allowed his tongue to slip out to wet Kris’s lips. Adam’s own hands lay flat on either side of Kris’s head steadying himself over his husbands body.
The heated make out session only stopped when both men began struggling for breathe. Adam was the first to pull away causing Kris to let out a moan.
“I was enjoying that.” Kris pouted.
Adam smiled sadly hearing his husband’s weak voice. “You sound sick baby.” Adam let his hand slip over Kris’s face causing Kris’s eyes to shut. “Hey.” Adam pressed. “No sleeping. There’s been enough of that.”
Kris smiled lazily letting his eyes flutter open. “I missed you.” He confessed causing Adam’s eyes to water. “Did you miss me?”
“So much.” Adam swallowed the lump forming in his throat. “Where did you go?” Adam asked running his hand over Kris’s face again.
“Heaven.”
“Heaven?” Adam asked with a shaky squeak in his voice.
“I think so. Felt like heaven.”
“Well what happened there?” Adam sat back down on the seat by the bed as he took Kris’s hand in his own. Kissing the back of it lightly Adam urged Kris to go on.
“There was a house. There was a little house with a white fence surrounding it. You were there.” Kris smiled taking Adam’s hand and resting it over his heart. “I made breakfast every morning while you sang to me and after I would play the guitar for you and you would lay with your head on my knee and sing. All I could hear was your voice. It must have been heaven.”
Adam swallowed licking his dry lips. “Sounds nice baby.”
“And there was this noise. I could hear this noise from another room. The most beautiful noise I’ve ever heard.” Kris explained.
“What was it?” Adam asked as he leaned in close.
“A baby.” Kris answer quietly. “A baby crying.”
“A baby.” Adam sighed heavily.
“Adam where’s my baby?” Kris’s voice was now filled with sadness and fear. “No one’s mentioned my baby.” For the first time since he woke up Kris began to cry.
“No no Kris it’s ok. Your baby’s ok.” Adam jumped from the seat and ran towards the door. “Just wait ok. Just wait there.” Adam waiting for Kris to nod before running out the hospital room door.
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When Adam returned to Kris’s room with Sophia his tears had stopped and he was laying looking towards the ceiling.
“Baby.” Adam smiled walking towards the bed. “Someone I would like you to meet. Again.” Just like before Adam placed a sleeping Sophia onto Kris’s chest but this time Kris held her without any help.
“Oh my god.” Kris laughed and sobbed at the same time. “Oh my god.” He repeated.
“I know.” Adam sighed happily. “I know.”
“Where have you been my whole life?” Kris asked the sleeping baby. “Why did you take so long to get here?”
Adam sat back in his chair with a smile on his face and watched his husband and daughter interact for the first time.
“You’re so beautiful.” Kris gushed. “My beautiful baby...” Kris looked up at Adam with a confused look on his face.
“Baby girl.” Adam smiled.
“My baby girl.” Kris sobbed pressing his face against the soft hairs on Sophia’s head.
“Sophia.” Adam added. “Your baby Sophia.”
“Sophia.” Kris sighed happily looking down at his daughter.
“Happy baby?” Adam asked.
“So much.” Kris smiled back at him. “So much.”
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| Subject: Re: Working Through Wed Nov 11, 2009 12:49 pm | |
| The door to Kris’s hospital was closed shut as Adam approached with Sophia clutched close to his chest. It had taken exactly twenty-three minutes to bundle Sophia into her car seat and race back towards the hospital while trying to be careful but now that he was facing the closed door he couldn’t make himself walk inside. Instead he chose to stand silently outside with Sophia in his arms his eyes fixed on the closed white door.
“Adam?” Neil Allan’s voice broke the silence Adam had created around him.
“He sounded different.” Adam turned to look at his father in law. “On the phone he sounded different like he wasn’t himself. He didn’t sound like himself. What if he’s different?” Adam moved away from the door quickly like it was going to burn him. “I couldn’t cope if he’s different Neil.”
“Adam” Neil sighed reaching out for his son in law but Adam moved away quickly.
“No Neil. I’ve read about this. People wake up and are suddenly not themselves. What if he’s not himself anymore?”
“Well you’re not going to find anything out just standing here all day. Go and see him.” Neil answered his son in law matter of fact.
“But what if.......”
“No Adam.” Neil interrupted harshly. “Just go and see your husband. He’s waiting for you.” Removing Sophia from Adam’s arms Neil walked quickly away before Adam had time to answer him. Adam watched as his father in law disappeared around the corner with Sophia before turning back towards the white door.
It was another few moments of silence before Adam brought up the courage to open Kris’s hospital room door. The room was still dark like before but the beeping of the heart machine had gone leaving the room completely quiet. It took Adam a few seconds for his eyes to adjust to the darkness and find Kris, seeing Kris laying in the bed just like before with his eyes shut. He hadn’t expected this he had expected Kris’s eyes to be open when he entered the room. Taking small steps towards the bed Adam took a shaky breath as his husband’s chest raised and fell all on its own.
“So you’re still not bored with the sleeping yet?” Adam asked as he sat down taking Kris’s hand in his own. A rush of silliness washed over him realising Kris was now actually sleeping and now in a medicated coma.
Adam felt a sudden rush of tiredness wash over him as he again let the silence surround him. Laying his head on his husbands chest he calmed himself hearing the younger mans heart beating strongly against his ear. He lay like this for a long time and it wasn’t until he felt a gentle hand stroking his back did he lift his head.
“Hey baby.” Just hearing those two words again caused Adam to weep. Pressing his face into Kris’s chest Adam allowed himself to break. Kris for his part held Adam’s head in his hands pressing it closer to him and allowed the older man to cry.
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Adam lay with his head on Kris’s stomach looking up at the younger man as Kris ran his fingers weakly through Adam’s thick hair.
“You’re beautiful.” Kris whispered. The only words any of them had uttered in over an hour. “Panda eyes and all.” He added with a smirk as he wiped away the smudged eyeliner from Adam’s cheek.
“Are you real?” Adam asked with a shy smile on his face.
“Kiss me and find out.” Kris tugged at Adam’s hair till the older man moved up slowly towards his face.
“I don’t want to hurt you.” Adam confused quietly.
“Not kissing me will hurt more.”
Adam took a few seconds to study Kris’s face before letting his lips press against the younger mans. The kiss was gentle and timid at first with both men letting the other taking the lead but as Kris’s fingers dug deeper into Adam’s scalp Adam allowed his tongue to slip out to wet Kris’s lips. Adam’s own hands lay flat on either side of Kris’s head steadying himself over his husbands body.
The heated make out session only stopped when both men began struggling for breathe. Adam was the first to pull away causing Kris to let out a moan.
“I was enjoying that.” Kris pouted.
Adam smiled sadly hearing his husband’s weak voice. “You sound sick baby.” Adam let his hand slip over Kris’s face causing Kris’s eyes to shut. “Hey.” Adam pressed. “No sleeping. There’s been enough of that.”
Kris smiled lazily letting his eyes flutter open. “I missed you.” He confessed causing Adam’s eyes to water. “Did you miss me?”
“So much.” Adam swallowed the lump forming in his throat. “Where did you go?” Adam asked running his hand over Kris’s face again.
“Heaven.”
“Heaven?” Adam asked with a shaky squeak in his voice.
“I think so. Felt like heaven.”
“Well what happened there?” Adam sat back down on the seat by the bed as he took Kris’s hand in his own. Kissing the back of it lightly Adam urged Kris to go on.
“There was a house. There was a little house with a white fence surrounding it. You were there.” Kris smiled taking Adam’s hand and resting it over his heart. “I made breakfast every morning while you sang to me and after I would play the guitar for you and you would lay with your head on my knee and sing. All I could hear was your voice. It must have been heaven.”
Adam swallowed licking his dry lips. “Sounds nice baby.”
“And there was this noise. I could hear this noise from another room. The most beautiful noise I’ve ever heard.” Kris explained.
“What was it?” Adam asked as he leaned in close.
“A baby.” Kris answer quietly. “A baby crying.”
“A baby.” Adam sighed heavily.
“Adam where’s my baby?” Kris’s voice was now filled with sadness and fear. “No one’s mentioned my baby.” For the first time since he woke up Kris began to cry.
“No no Kris it’s ok. Your baby’s ok.” Adam jumped from the seat and ran towards the door. “Just wait ok. Just wait there.” Adam waiting for Kris to nod before running out the hospital room door.
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When Adam returned to Kris’s room with Sophia his tears had stopped and he was laying looking towards the ceiling.
“Baby.” Adam smiled walking towards the bed. “Someone I would like you to meet. Again.” Just like before Adam placed a sleeping Sophia onto Kris’s chest but this time Kris held her without any help.
“Oh my god.” Kris laughed and sobbed at the same time. “Oh my god.” He repeated.
“I know.” Adam sighed happily. “I know.”
“Where have you been my whole life?” Kris asked the sleeping baby. “Why did you take so long to get here?”
Adam sat back in his chair with a smile on his face and watched his husband and daughter interact for the first time.
“You’re so beautiful.” Kris gushed. “My beautiful baby...” Kris looked up at Adam with a confused look on his face.
“Baby girl.” Adam smiled.
“My baby girl.” Kris sobbed pressing his face against the soft hairs on Sophia’s head.
“Sophia.” Adam added. “Your baby Sophia.”
“Sophia.” Kris sighed happily looking down at his daughter.
“Happy baby?” Adam asked.
“So much.” Kris smiled back at him. “So much.” | |
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Fairy_Kisses82 Admin
Posts : 54 Join date : 2009-11-11 Age : 41 Location : Anywhere Adam is
| Subject: Re: Working Through Wed Nov 11, 2009 12:51 pm | |
| Chapter four
Three hours had passed since Kris woke up and in those three hours Adam had not left his side once, not even when the doctors had insisted he had to. It wasn't enough to Adam that Kris was awake he needed to constantly look over at his husband and make sure the he was still there. Kris lay on his back with Sophia still resting safely on his chest as they both drifted in and out of a peaceful sleep both content to be together finally.
The times Kris's eyes would close over even when he fought not to Adam would allow himself to sit in the silence and wallow. He had not in the three days of Kris being gone allowed himself to really think about the what if's. He had lashed out and broke down plenty of times but to think in reality about a future without Kris was not something he could allow himself to do. And it was only when he had memorised the brown of Kris's eyes again did he let his mind wallow. He would wallow in the what if's until Kris opened his eyes again then he would have to shake off the bad thoughts and be ready with a warm smile to greet his husband.
“Hey.” Kris said with his sleepy voice.
“Hey.” Adam whispered back leaning down to kiss his lips gently.
“You're brave to do that.” Kris laughed. “I haven't brushed my teeth in days.”
Adam smiled leaning down again deepening the kiss this time. “Don't care.”
“Kris laughed causing Sophia to wiggle around his chest. “Did you know I love you. Both of you.” He added holding Sophia just a little bit tighter.
“You do?” Adam asked letting his head rest on Kris's shoulder.
“I kinda do.” Kris admitted.
“Guess it's a good thing I love you too. Both of you. “ Adam's hand came up to rest over the top of Kris's as it gently cupped Sophia's back. A wave of peacefulness washed over him as he let his eyes close.
Kris's other hand left Sophia's back coming up to rest on top of Adam's hair pressing their heads closer. “Remember Boston?” He asked into Adam's hair.
“Our first I love you?” Adam Smirked.
Flashback.
Adam made sure Matt and Danny were both snoring loudly in the bunks across from him before he climbed out his own and into Kris's The same sight met him just like every other night he had done this. Kris laying on his side away from Adam his laptop beside him.
“You started without me.” Adam pouted as he wedged himself into the small space behind Kris. “And my ass is hanging out the bunk again.”
“That's what you get for having a big ass then isn't it.” Kris dodged Adam's hand as it came swinging towards his head. “Joking.” Kris laughed causing Adam to cover his mouth with his hand.
“Shhhh. You want us to get caught.” Adam whispered into Kris's shoulder.
“Caught doing what?”
“I don't know.” Adam sighed his hand slipping from Kris's mouth down to rest on his chest.
He really didn't know what they were doing it's not like they talked about it or anything. Adam had learnt early on in his friendship with Kris that the younger man didn't question his actions like Adam did. He was calm and relaxed with everything he did while Adam spent hours on the phone to different people having mini nervous break downs. All Adam knew what that every night for the past month he had crawled into the bed and arms of his best friend with the pretence of watching a movie or reading a book together and if it ended with them making out in the darkness then it was another thing not to question. But then again Adam wasn't one not to question and he knew he couldn't go on just accepting whatever was happening between him and Kris.
“I really don't know what we would get caught doing but I know it would be something. This is something.” He waited for Kris to answer but when nothing came he leaned over Kris's body to see his face. “What is this?”
“Friendship?” Kris's confident smile was now replaced by a small frown.
“You're friend with Matt. Would you do this with him?” This only brought on a sigh. A heavy deep sigh that Adam knew was only there because the truth was coming out.
“Why do you have to push this. Can't we just enjoy it.” Kris pleaded.
“I do enjoy it. I just wish I knew what I was enjoying. Just tell me what you're thinking.”
Kris sat himself up from the bunk. “ Can you move please.” When he didn't move Kris climbed over Adam and out of the bunk. It was only when he heard the bathroom door slam shut did he manage to move.
He walked slowly towards the bathroom door making sure no one could hear him as he slipped into the bathroom and closed the door behind him. Kris sat on the toilet seat with his head in his hands.
“You have to push. Why can't you just leave me alone.”
“I can leave you alone.” Adam says softly. “ Just tell me to and I will.” Kris looked up at Adam with tears in his eyes.
“You know I don't want that.” He answers heavily.
“What do you want then.”
“I only wanted to watch a movie with you and have you hold my hand.”
Adam nodded leaning down pulling Kris's head up further. “ We can do that but I want to know what we are.”
“You're really annoying.”
“Yea.” Adam smiled. “But if you let me know what this is then we can get past it and go back to holding hands and watching movies.”
“Really annoying.” Kris sighs.
“Kris.”
“I love you.” Kris snaps. “Happy jackass? I love you.”
Adam's legs gave way as he slumped down on his knee's in front of Kris. “You love me? I just thought you wanted in my pants.”
“Shut up. I don't want to love you. I've tried not to but........”
“You love me.” Adam interrupted. “You love me. You really love me.” He was smiling now but Kris was only getting angrier at him.
“I don't want to. I don't want this. You're not who I want to love.”
“Okay. Who do you want to love?” Adam was trying not to let Kris's confession get to him but it was hard not to.
“I just. I just want to love someone who will love me back. I don't need to be running around after someone who's out of my league.”
Adam sat speechless in front of Kris as he heard the truth finally coming out of the younger man's mouth.
“And now you've pushed it and now things are going to be weird. This is why I didn't want to say anything. I'm sorry” Kris stood pushing Adam out the way but this time Adam stop him.
“Hey. Who says this changes anything. You haven't even let me say anything.”
“I don't need your pity Adam.”
Adam grabbed him by the arm pushing him against the bathroom wall. “Who says I pity you? You think your out of my league you think I don't love you back? I mean how stupid is that?” Not exactly what Adam wanted to say but he was panicking.
“I'm stupid to love you.” Kris mumbled as he looked at his shoes.
“Hey.” Adam said shaking him by the shoulders a little. “Hey look at me.” Adam waited till Kris looked up at him. “I love you too.”
End Of Flashback.
“I can't believe I told you I love you the first time on a toilet seat.” Kris laughed.
“Yea I was trying to forget that part.” Adam said shaking his head. “But it was pretty romantic all the same.”
“Something to tell Sophia when she gets older.” Both men look down at the sleeping baby in Kris's arms.
“Yea.” Adam smiled. “There's lots of stories this little one needs to hear.” Adam lay his head down on Kris's chest next to Sophia's head.
“I love you.” Kris whispers looking down at both of them.
“We love you too.” Adam answers in a whisper. | |
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Fairy_Kisses82 Admin
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| Subject: Re: Working Through Wed Nov 11, 2009 1:00 pm | |
| Chapter Five
Flashback
He didn't want to cause a scene so as slowly and discreetly as he could Kris slipped his hand over Adam's twitching knee holding it still.
“I wish you would relax baby. People are going to start thinking you're afraid of flying or something.”
Adam slipped his hand over Kris's gripping it tightly not care if all of first class might see.” More like afraid of Arkansas. I swear Kris I'm going to throw up.”
Kris tried his best not to smile as he watched Adam's knee begin to twitch again. “Well try not get any on my shoes please.” Turning back to the movie in front of him Kris tried to ignore his nervous boyfriend beside him but Adam had other ideas.
“They're going to hate me.”
“No they're not.”
“They're going to think I turned you gay. That I'm the reason you're gay"
“No they won't”
“I'm going to throw up.”
“No you're not.”
“I'm going to.......”
“Adam.” Kris finally snapped causing a few people around them to look over. “You have to calm down baby.” He whispered this time. He had been listening to his boyfriend freak out for a week now and even though he had promised Adam that everything would be ok and that nothing bad was going to happen Adam had continuously ignored his promises. “My parents love you baby. My brother love you and my friends are going to love you too. Now please calm yourself down before one of those over friendly air hostesses has to restrain you.” Kris turned back to the movie sighing happily when Adam didn't say any more.
It was all supposed to be easy it wasn't like it was the first time it was happening. Adam had met Kris family dozens of times over the past year he had shared dinners with them and even went to both Kris's parents birthday parties. So when Mrs Allen had asked Kris to come home for the weekend he had seen it as a great opportunity to bring Adam home and finally tell everyone about their relationship. Kris had thought his plan was great but as he watched the colour drain from Adam's face he realised his weekend home wasn't going to be as fun as he thought.
“Why did I let you talk me into this?” Adam complained.
“Because you love me.” Kris answered matter of fact.
“But they're going to hate me.”
“Baby not they're not.”
“They're going to think I turned you gay.”
“I said they won't.” Kris sighed wishing he had taken the headset when the air hostess offered it to him.
“But.....”
“I will email Perez Hilton that video of you trying to kick the football if you say one more word.” Kris warned.
“But.....”
“Hey.” Kris interrupted pointing his finger at Adam. “ I mean it.”
“Fine. But when this all blows up in our faces I won't be saying I told you so.”
“I'm sure you won't baby.” Kris patted Adam's knee before turning back to the movie. Now if he could keep Adam like that Kris thought the weekend might just off without any real dramas.
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“Hey baby there they are.” Kris pulled Adam through the crowded airport towards his waiting parents.
“Boys.” Mrs Allen gushed as she pulled both of them into her arms. “Adam it's been too long. We missed you.” Kris wiggled out of his mothers arms shooting Adam a smug look as he found himself being pulled into his fathers arms.
“She's right Adam.” Kris's father added. “It's been too long.” Kris felt his fathers arms leave him before Adam was pulled in for a hug. “Now why don't we get you boys home and fatten you both up. You're both too skinny” Kris walked beside his mother as he watched Adam and his father walk ahead.
“Oh you boys don't mind sharing a room do you?” Kris's mothers words caused Adam to look over his shoulder with a frightened look on his face. “Adam honey you ok?” Mrs Allen asked with concern. “You look like your going to be sick.”
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Kris sat back on his childhood bed and watched Adam pace up and down in front of him. Words had stopped forming for Adam and all he could do now was shake his head and sigh every few seconds.
“Mama has a blow up bed we can both sleep on. It's a double so we won't be too squashed together.”
“They're going to hate me.”
“Oh my god.” Kris threw himself back against the mattress.
“Well they are.”
“If the public could see you now.” Kris leaned up on his elbows laughing. “This neurotic crazy self doubting wreck.”
“I'm going to be sick.” Adam announced running from the room with Kris following behind.
When Kris finally caught up with him Adam was hunched over the toilet emptying his stomach. “Baby?” Kris kneeled behind Adam running his hands up his boyfriends back.
“Don't touch me.” Adam shrugged Kris's hand away. “I don't want you seeing me like this.”
“Baby.” Kris laughed lightly needing his hand into Adam's hair. “I've licked jelly from your belly button. I don't think there much we have to hide from each other now.”
Once Adam was sure he wasn't going to be sick again he leaned back against Kris's chest heavily. “I told you I was going to be sick.”
“Yes you did.” Kris kissed the side of his boyfriends head as he ran his hands down Adam's front to rub circles on his stomach.
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“Mama. Dad. There's something I want you both to know.” The calmness Kris was showing earlier was gone now replaced with a rush of nervous energy as he looked towards his parents. Adam sat beside him for support but Kris could tell the older man was going to be no help if his parents took this badly.
“Are you sick?” Mrs Allen asked with worry in his voice.
“No Mama.” Kris watched as the worry stayed on his mothers face while his father sat still beside her his face filled with confusion as he looked towards Adam. “It's not anything bad Mama.” Kris stole a look at Adam who was now watching Kris's father closely.
“So what's the news” Mr Allen asked without taking his eyes off of Adam.
“Well Mama. Dad. I've...I've met someone. Someone who's very special to me.”
“You've met a girl?” Mrs Allen asked a little surprised. “A girl in La?” Both Kris and Adam let out a laugh at his mothers words. It was a well known joke now that Mrs Allen worried continuously that her baby boy would be caught up with some La fame whore who was only after his money and his name.
“No.” Mr Allen answered finally looking at Kris. “He didn't meet a girl in La. Did you Kristopher?” Mr Allen looked back at Adam again it was a look of shock and anger that caused Adam to flinch back into the couch a little.
“No sir.”
“Mr Allen.”
“Not now Adam. Kris has to say this. Kris tell your mother who you met.” Kris looked towards his mother with tears forming in his eyes.
“Baby what's the matter?” Mrs Allen asked as she kneeled in front of Kris taking both his hands in hers.
“I love him Mama.” Kris managed to choke out before throwing himself into his mothers arms. The sound of his fathers footsteps stomping out of the front door and Adam's hands gently rubbing over his back only caused him to cry harder.
“Oh honey.” Mrs Allen sighed holding Kris tighter. “Now don't think of me as stupid but the him his Adam right?”
Kris pulled away laughing and crying at the same time. “Yes Mama it's Adam.”
“God I think I'm going to throw up.” Adam moaned as he hid his face with his hands.
“Oh honey.” Mrs Allen laughing making her way towards Adam pulling him into her arms. “You love my baby boy?” She pulled away holding Adam's face in her hands.
“With everything I own.” Adam answered honestly.
“My next phone call with your mother is going to be a long one.” Mrs Allen laughed again pulling both boys into her arms.
End Of Flashback
Kris lay back against the hospital bed giggling as Adam held Sophia in his arms telling her another story of their past.
“And it took Grandma Allen two days before she realised that Daddy was gay.” Adam looked up at Kris laughing. “ I can't believe I survived that weekend. I was sure your Dad left to find a gun.”
“He came around.” Kris ran his finger tips over Sophia's head. “And you think telling your parents wasn't traumatic for me?”
Flashback
“Oh my god.” Kris leaped up from his knees in front of Adam to find Leila standing in the door way behind him.
“God Mom don't you knock?” Adam complained as he tried his best to buckle his pants.
“Kitchen now.” Leila snapped walking away.
“Please tell me that didn't happen?” Kris covered his face with his hands.
“It didn't happen.” Adam answered with a smirk.
“Your mother just caught me....And in her home too.” Kris sunk onto his knees in front of Adam again the embarrassment to much for him to take.
“Round two?” Adam smirked.
End Of Flashback.
“Hey.” Adam whispered placing his hand over Sophia's ears. “She does not need to hear that story.”
“Oh we're embarrassed now?” Kris smirked. “And you don't think getting caught with my mouth full wasn't embarrassing for me?”
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| Subject: Re: Working Through Wed Nov 11, 2009 1:02 pm | |
| Chapter Seven
Adam watched with tears in his eyes as his husband whispered goodnight into their daughters ear. They had been putting it off for over and hour now but hospital rules state that only a spouse could spend the night at a patients bedside so Sophia had to leave. Kris's Mom had arrived to take her home to bed but even she wasn't wanting to break the new family up.
“What if you hid her in the bed beside you and I'll just pretend to take her away.”
“And have us all thrown out the hospital when she starts crying?” Adam asked. He loved the idea of keeping her there but really didn't want to be thrown out himself if they got caught.
“Just make sure she's here first thing.” Kris smiled giving Sophia one last kiss before his mom took her out of his arms.
“Okay but Leila and I went shopping this morning so expect the pinkest frilliest dress ever.”
“Just like her Papa then.” Kris giggled earning a gentle slap from Adam.
Kris stayed silent as he watched his Mom walk away with Sophia. Her little face pecked out from over his Mom's shoulder and he could see her tired eyes already closing.
“You okay?” Adam quizzed rubbing his fingers up and down Kris's arm gently.
“Yea.” Kris sighed looking towards his husband. “You look tired.”
“But happy.”
“Come here.” Kris tried his best to mover over to give Adam room on the bed.
Not wanting to hurt his husband Adam perched himself on the side of the bed leaning his body over Kris's. “Hey.” he whispered so soft Kris almost didn't hear him.
“You haven't made love to me in days.” Kris carded his fingertips through Adam's fringe tugging it gently.
“You were sleeping. You know I'm not into anything that kinky.”
“I'm awake now.” Kris replied his mouth twitching into a smirk.
Adam watched him closely waiting for him to laugh and say he was joking but his smirk soon turned serious. “Kris. Come on baby. We can't.”
“Call the press. Adam Lambert turning down sex.” Kris gasped in fake horror.
“Well when it comes to my baby's health I'm all about control.” Adam leaned down capturing Kris's lips again. Kris deepened the kiss pulling Adam down till he was almost on top of him.
“Then tell me a story then.”
“Any request.” Adam leaned back till he was laying across Kris's chest.
“Tell me about the first time you saw me.” Kris's eyes were heavy as he settled back against the bed his fingers running through Adam's hair again.
“Ah. The very first time I saw you.”
Flashback.
Adam pulled his leather jacket from his shoulders as he looked around the room at his competition. First day of Hollywood week and he was already doubting his decision to even enter the competition. Not that he was doubting his talent he just didn't think America was ready for him. Now looking around at the talent he really didn't fit in. He needed coffee, needed something stronger but coffee would have to do for the moment. Turning towards the exit Adam's shoulder was met but something hard. Looking down Adam was met with a head full of soft fluffy brown hair.
“Damn sorry.” The small figure in front of him stumbled backwards causing Adam to reach out and catch him. “Sorry.” He repeated.
“It's fine.” The small figure muttered. It took Adam a few seconds to realise he was still holding onto him by his arms.
“Damn sorry.” He said pulling his hands away.
“Again it's fine.” The small man looked around again. “No one in this damn town seems to look where they're going anyway.”
“Tough day?” Adam didn't know why he asked that, the man obliviously wasn't in a good mood and talking to a complete stranger probably wasn't going to make it any better.
Pulling his guitar tighter over his shoulder the man finally looked up. “Just.....You're Adam. Adam Lambert.” A fan? Thought Adam. He didn't look like a fan, theatre fans usually were gay middle aged men and housewife's. “I've been looking for you.” Kris continued. “For like hours now.” A fan that's been looking for him, that's probably not a good thing.
“Right.” Adam looked down at the small man in front of him. He didn't look dangerous but then what did he know about stalkers. “And now you've found me.” He looked around for anyone that he knew, anyone that could be a witness if anything bad happened.
“Yea I found you and....” Adam continued looking around for someone, anyone. “Are you OK?”
“What? Oh yea. I'm good.”
“You look like Stevie Wonder with those head movements.” Kris answered with a smirk causing Adam to look down at him. A funny stalker. Funny cute stalker Adam thought as he finally looked at him. “Kris.” Kris held out his hand. “You're new room mate.”
“Room mate?” Adam asked confused.
“Yea. As in we're sharing a room. You have the key, I've been carrying my things around for an hour now looking for you.”
Adam still looked confusingly at Kris. “Room mate.”
“Yea.” Kris sighed. “Contestants have to share rooms. I'm sharing with you. Listen buddy I really don't know how more simple I can say it. Now I've been wandering around this place for an hour looking for this Mr Adam Lambert that everyone's been talking about. I just want to get to my room.”
“So you're not a fan?” Adam asked.
“Of who?” Kris asked pulling his guitar over his shoulder again.
It all hit Adam at once, his mind finally catching up with everything Kris had said. “Room mate. Right sorry okay.” He smiled putting on his best friendly face. “Need a hand with your things?”
Kris sighed. “I just want to get to my room man.” Adam pointed towards the elevator letting Kris lead the way.
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Adam sat on his bed across from Kris watching as the small man unpacked his bags. Maybe putting himself into the competition wasn't such a bad idea Adam thought as Kris bent over to slip his empty bag under the bed.
“So you're a singer?”
“No.” Kris answered placing his guitar on the bed. “I'm a dancing. I just thought it would be funny to see how far I got in a singing competition.”
“Okay.” Adam stood up from the bed. “I can see your not in mood for company.” Adam made his way towards the hotel room door before feeling Kris's hand on his shoulder.
“I hate this town.” Kris moved back towards the beds causing Adam to follow him. “I don't do crowds and I don't do traffic and I don't do carrying my bags around looking for rock star Adam Lambert.” Och thought Adam.
“Rock star wannabe.” Adam sat down on the bed beside Kris. “And you could have left your bags at front desk while you found me.”
A small smile came across Kris's face. “And then what would I have to complain about now?”
“Ah you're one of those guys.” Adam smiled bumping Kris's shoulders with his own. “I thought I would be the only drama queen here.”
“Well I'll do the drama and leave the queen stuff to you.” It was Kris's turn to bump Adam's shoulder. “If the rumours are true.”
“It's Hollywood. All the rumours are true honey.”
End OF Flashback
“Hey.” Kris poked him husband's back. “You're making me sound like a spoilt baby.”
“You kind of where.” Adam laughed resting his chin on Kris's bare stomach. “You bitched about those damn bags for hours.”
“I want to hear a nice story. Tell me a nice story.”
Adam chewed on his bottom lip for a moment before his eyes lit up. “ Okay, I'll do nice.”
Flashback
Adam peeked his head out from under the pillow at the sound of water running. With the bathroom door open he could see the faint outline of his new room mate taking a shower.
End Of Flashback
“Hey I said nice not perverted.”
Adam let out a loud laugh as he sat up stretching. “That was nice. Hell it was really nice.”
“Pervert.” Kris shook his head laughing along with his husband.
“I'm not the one that left the bathroom door open.” Adam commented.
“A nice story.” Kris tugged Adam back down till his head was laying against his chest.
Flashback
“So what's your story Kris from Arkansas.” Adam lay across his hotel bed watching Kris play the guitar on his. He had been watching for over an hour now, How his hands small yet strong ran up and down the neck of the guitar realising a soft medley into the room.
“Not much to tell. Grew up in a small town dreamed of bigger things. One day decided to try out for American's biggest talent show and leave behind the small town.” Kris answered matter of fact looking up to see Adam smiling back at him. “Your story's probably a little more glamorous than mine.”
“Not exactly.”
“ Come on. I bet you were the biggest thing in your high school.”
Adam looked down at his hands. “Not really. I was just the gay red head with the freckles that nobody really paid attention to unless I was on stage.”
Kris sat his guitar down with a bang causing Adam to look up at him. Slowly the shorter man made his way towards Adam's bed kneeling beside him. “Freckles?”
“Everywhere.” Adam admitted. He couldn't believe he was telling this kid his deepest secret, the thing he woke up two hours early just to hide from the people around him.
“Everywhere?” Kris asked his voice going surprisingly high.
“Everywhere.” Adam laughed. “No place left untouched.”
Kris gingerly reached his hand out letting it slip in side Adam's open shirt to stroke his neck. “Is it weird that I think that's cute?”
“Very.” Adam laughed letting Kris continue to stroke his neck with his fingertips.
End Of Flashback
“Now that's a nice story.” Kris smiled as he lazily ran his fingers over Adam's neck. | |
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| Subject: Re: Working Through Wed Nov 11, 2009 1:03 pm | |
| Chapter Eight
With Sophia laying asleep quietly in Adam's arms Kris sat up in his hospital bed watching them both closely. It had amazed him how gentle and caring Adam was being towards their daughter. How his fingertips gently ran over Sophia's head his black painted finger nails disappearing into the soft hairs on her head. Gentle was not a word people associated with Adam but for Kris it was always the perfect word to describe him. From the moment they had met Adam had allowed the walls he build around him to slowly crumble and Kris began to see the real Adam. Now as he watched his husband cradle their daughter close to his chest Kris remembered the first time he saw Adam's gentle side.
Flashback
Thursday mornings at the mansion had somehow turned into family time without any of the contestants really agreeing to it. Kris sat onto of the kitchen unit watching Lil make pancakes for her three kids, His mouth watering at the idea of it.
“I bet you wish your Mama was here to make you pancakes.” Kris looked down to see Lil's oldest daughter looking back up at him smugly.
“I can make my own pancakes.” Kris answered back. He was lying but he wasn't going to let her know that.
“No you can't.” Kris didn't really want to be arguing with a small child. “You're a man. My Mama says men can't cook.” But the child seemed to want a fight.
“I can so cook.”
“Kris.” Lil laughed. “Don't be starting something you can't win.”
“She started it.” Kris complained as Meg came bounding into the kitchen.
“Anyone seen Ryder?”
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The mansion was not the best place for a two year old to be hiding and with all of the contestants searching downstairs Kris headed towards the bedroom he shared with Adam.
“Adam have you seen.......” Kris paused at the bedroom door hearing Adam's voice coming from inside.
“Ryder seriously buddy I don't know the three bears story.” Adam's voice came in a soft tone.
“Three bears.”
“Buddy I promise you I don't know it.”
“Three bears.”
Meg approached Kris at the bottom of the stairs.
“Shh” Kris placed his finger to his lips.
“Three bears.”
“Oh alright then.” Adam sighed from inside the room. “There was three bears.” Adam began causing Kris and Meg to giggle from the other side of the door. “There was the big bear. He must have been the Daddy and then the other bear how I'm guessing was Daddy bears boyfriend. Lets call him, What should we call him Ryder?”
Meg buried her face into Kris's shoulder giggling as they both listened to Adam's story.
“Bear.” Came Ryder's answer.
“Okay.” Adam laughed. “Daddy bear and bear bear and Baby bear.”
“Oh my god He's telling my son a gay fairytale.” Meg giggled.
“Just be happy he didn't make one of them a drag bear.”
End Of Flashback
What are you smiling at?” Adam shook Kris's shoulder lightly bringing him out of his day dream.
“ My handsome husband. Got a problem with that?” Kris put on his toughest look but in only caused Adam to giggle.
“Macho ain't your image baby.” Adam leaned over pulling Kris in for a quick kiss on the lips.
“Mmm.” Kris sighed heavily resting his forehead against Adam's. “I think you need to leave.”
Adam pulled back giving Kris an odd look. “You better be joking.”
“You need to sleep. You can't stay here forever.”
“Not forever. Just until they release you. Then I'm out of here.”
“Adam”
“Don't Adam me” Adam complained. “ And don't tell me to leave.”
“I'm not telling you anything.” Kris held his hands up. “I just want us all to get a good night sleep. And I don't want Sophia spending another night without one of us.”
Adam leaned back against his chair his body becoming suddenly tense. “That's not fair. You can't just drag our daughter into it.”
“I can if it works.” Kris smirked looking down at Sophia. “I think she needs to cuddle with her Papa tonight.”
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“Oh put your bottom lip in. I'll drive you straight back to the hospital first thing.” Adam watched as his mother in law fussed around him and Sophia.
“That's not what's annoying me.”
“Then what's your problem?”
“You tucked me in.” Adam pulled at the tight covers around him.
“Kris told me you like feeling snuggled in bed. It was either the covers or I let Daniel bunk in beside you.”
Adam winced at the idea of his brother in law in beside him. “Night Ma.”
“Night honey. Shout if Sophia wakes.” Adam looked towards the basket at the side of his bed. Sophia lay sound asleep inside with no idea what was going on around her. As Mrs Allen closed the door and allowed the darkness to surround him Adam felt a sudden rush of loneliness. He lay looking towards the basket Sophia's soft breathing gave him some reassurance but the loneliness was all around him. Adam had spent eight years in La alone but with the arrival of Kris in late 2008 the loneliness vanished. Replaced with a warm comfort that Adam could never really explain.
Flashback
It was like a military operation that Adam had full control over down to the very last detail. It would all begin with his room mates early morning phone call to his wife. With Kris out of their shared room Adam would leap from his bed and lock himself away in the bathroom for his daily routine. First would be the complete stripping of all the make up from his face. Adam would scrub away at the make up until his freckles began to appear. With his face clean he would begin applying a fresh layer of make up covering himself up again. All in it would take him twenty minutes to complete, just enough time for Kris to finish his phone call and make his way back towards the room and Adam would keep up his image of a rock god that everyone expects him to be. It was all planned so well until the morning Kris decided to end his daily phone call early.
“Adam seriously I need to use the bathroom.” Kris complained as he banged on the locked door.
Adam looked towards the mirror in front of him. His bare face looking back at him. “Can't you use another one? There's got to be about twenty in this house.”
“And they're all up stairs.” Kris banged the door harder. “Adam. Please.”
It was clear Kris wasn't going to give up any time soon so Adam took a deep breath and unlocked the bathroom door.
“Finally.” Kris pushed past Adam.
Adam stood frozen at the bathroom door as Kris relieved himself. He wanted to bolt from the bathroom and hide away until his face was covered up again but to do that he would have to pass Kris as he washed his hands to get his make up bag. Standing frozen at the bathroom door seemed to be the only thing he could do that wasn't bringing attention to himself.
Kris finished drying his hands before turning towards Adam. “There. Now you can go back to doing what......” Kris stopped looking up at Adam's face his eye brows knitting together in concentration. “You're not wearing any make up.”
“Yea.” Shyness was not something Adam was used to. He had out grown his shy nature year ago when high school finished but standing in front of Kris it was all creeping back. The years of worrying about bad skin and freckles in the locker room while the jocks stripped in front of him flashed in front of his face causing the blush to rise.
“I've never seen you without make up.” Kris was almost on his tip toes as he studied Adam's face closely.
“There's a reason for that.”
“I didn't know make up could cover up so much.” Taking his finger Kris ran it along Adam's bottom lip slowly. “I didn't know you could have freckles on you're lips.”
“You don't know a lot.” Adam smirked allowing himself to lean into Kris's touch.
“I know you shouldn't wear so much make up.” Kris's hands slipped to grip onto Adam's hips. “I know that you're depriving the world from seeing the real you.” Tilting his head to the side Kris bit his bottom lip. “But then I like the idea of being one of the few people that gets to see you like this. You should know that you don't have to hide from me.”
End Of Flashback
From that moment on Adam had never felt lonely again. Kris had the ability to know when Adam needed him so it wasn't a surprise when Adam heard his cell buzzing from the side of the bed.
(Stop thinking an sleep)
Adam smirked as he read the text from Kris jumping when it buzzed again.
(I love u bb)
(Love u 2)
(u better)
Adam laughed shaking his head.
(wish u were here)
(U turned on?)
Adam raised an eyebrow re-reading over the text his husband just sent.
(Always am)
Adam knew how to play this game.
(mean Mr lambert really mean)
(I love u Mr Allen-Lambert)
(I love u more Mr Lambert-Allen)
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| Chapter Nine
Six days since the accident and three days since Kris opened his eyes and yet the doctors had no real desire to release him. The memory lose was still there and at times Adam could see it was really affecting his husband. If It wasn't forgetting to eat it was telling the same story over and over again. Even getting himself up and dressed was beginning to be a full task for Kris.
“Arms up.” Kris sat on his hospital bed legs hanging off the side while Adam stood between them.
“You're treating me like a baby.” Kris complained as Adam pulled his top over his head.
“You're my baby.” Adam admitted reaching in for a kiss. “I'm allowed to treat you like one.”
“Can't you save it for our daughter. Speaking of?”
“Your mother wouldn't give her up this morning.” Adam pulled Kris's plaid shirt over his shoulders. “And since we have a date I figured the kid deserved a few hours away from us.”
“Date?.”
“Yea.” Adam smirked. “I'm taking you on a date.”
“Since when do we date.” Kris laughed.
“We date.” Adam pouted. “We've dated plenty.”
Kris rolled his eyes at his husband earning him another pout from Adam. “Oh come on. We've been on one date our whole relationship and that ended in tears.”
“Not it didn't.” Adam complained.
“Yea. You're tears.”
“I didn't cry.”
“No but you pouted and complained. It was like you were crying.?” Kris asked with a smirk.
“I did not pout.” Adam snapped but instantly turned serious when he realised what he had done. “I'm so sorry.”
“Sorry?” Kris answered. “For what?”
“Shouting. I won't do it again.” Adam promised as he began helping Kris with his pants. “Sorry.”
“Okay.” Kris raised an eyebrow. “Who the hell are you and what have you done with my argumentative husband?”
“You're right. I did pout on our first date.”
“Are you giving in on an argument because I'm sick?” Adam tried ignoring his husband but Kris pulled at his face till he was looking at him. “I can still fight with you.”
“I know.” Adam said with a fake smile.
“I can you idiot.” Kris pushed at Adam's shoulders causing him to stumble backwards.
“Hey don't. You can't get yourself excited.” Adam moved forward again only to be pushed again by Kris.
“Like you could excite me.” Kris said in a mock tone. “God how longs it been since you even tried to turn me on.”
“Kris.”
“Don't Kris me. You walk around like you're all that. What would your fans say if they knew we spent most nights passed out in front of the Tv?” Kris pushed Adam once again causing him to bump against the chair.
“What are you doing?” Adam stayed where he was this time giving him and Kris enough distance from each other.
“Just saying.” Kris shrugged. “I mean you're taking me on a date. What's the point.?”
“I thought we could spend some time outside of this hospital room. Together.” Adam sounded almost hurt as he explained this to his husband.
“To do what? Sit on a bench and look at the tree's.” Kris scoffed. “I think I'd rather just stay here thanks.”
“What the hell is wrong with you?” Adam stepped forward so he was standing between Kris's legs again.
“Just don't want to be bored by you. That's all.” Kris shrugged.
“So I bore you?” Adam quizzed raising an eyebrow.
“Lately yea.”
Adam leaned forward until his face was inches from Kris's. He watched his husband closely as Kris only smirked back at him. “I know what you're doing.”
“And what am I doing?” Kris asked as he leaned back on the bed causing Adam to lean down further against him.
“You're pushing me until I snap. And then when I snap........”
“You get horny?” Kris interrupted me with a smirk.
“You're sick.”
“I'm horny.”
“You're still sick.”
“But I'm horny.”
“Take and cold shower.” Adam leaned down pressing his nose against Kris's.
“Won't that make me sicker.”
“I'm not having sex with you.” Adam pressed his nose into the crease of Kris's neck. “I want to take my husband on a date.” Came Adam's muffed request.
“Fine.” Kris sighed finally giving in. “But.” He said as Adam leaned up to look at him. “Remember our first date?”
“Yea. Our only date.”
“When You pouted”
Flashback.
Adam checked his make up one more time in the bus bathroom mirror before trying his best to sneak out through the door of the bus.
“And where are you going?” Matt looked up from his book giving Adam the once over. “Dress like that.”
Adam looked down at his black leather pants and black button up shirt. “What?. Don't I look good?” He asked panicking.
“You look fine. Maybe just a little dressed up.”
“But I look okay. Not bad or anything.”
“You look like Adam.” Matt answered while looking back at his book.
“And that's okay?”
“It has to be since it's who you are.” Matt wasn't really paying attention now so Adam took the chance and jumped from the step of the bus into the dark night.
It had all been planned down to the last detail after Kris had taken the lead and asked Adam out on their first date. It seemed so unreal for Adam to be finally going on a date with Kris. Ever since they had both admitted their feelings to each other inside the bus bathroom it had been something that wasn't talked about. Kris had only been separated from Katy for a few months and the press were still raving about that so the idea of Kris now stepping out with Adam wasn't really going to go down very well. And it was the press that had driven this late night dash across the car park to the waiting car with Kris inside.
“Matt caught me.” Adam complained as he climbed into the passenger side.
“Caught you doing what?” Kris fiddled around with the radio until he found a song he liked.
“Leaving the bus.”
“And?” Kris laughed finally looking towards Adam.
“And he asked where I was going”
“You never sneaked out the house as a kid did you?” Kris quizzed resting his arm of the back of Adam's so he could run his fingers into the back of his hair.
“I was a good kid”
“That's hard to believe.” Kris laughed pulling Adam in for a kiss. “You look beautiful by the way.”
“Thanks.” Adam answered quietly.
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Adam looked around the empty car park to see if there was any clue to where Kris had taken him but nothing was standing out.
“Will you relax. No one will see us here.” They had driven for over and hour through small deserted road and Adam and no idea where he was.
“And where is here?”
“Well.” Kris said leaning over Adam to look out the passenger side window. “See that building there.”
“Yea.” Adam looked towards the building that looked like some sort of apartment complex.
“That's my apartment.”
Adam looked up at the tall building with his mouth open. “You drove me to your home town?” Adam knew they were close to Kris's home town but he had no idea his date would bring him here.
“I figured it would be safer if one of us knew where to go. I just.” Kris looked out the window towards the sky. “I just wanted an normal date.”
“And is this a normal date for you?” Adam quizzed while he looked around the empty car park.
“The dates not starting yet smarty pants.” Kris unbuckled his belt. “How about we start it?” Kris climbed out the car to run round the front and open Adam's door for him.
Adam accepted Kris's outstretched hand while he climbed out the car and stood beside him as they both looked at the building in front of them. “Katy?” Adam asked giving Kris a side ways glance.
“She moved out last month. I told her we would be coming by tonight.” Kris leaded the way towards the building with Adam following close behind.
Adam's heart began to beat rapidly in his chest as he followed Kris up the stair case towards the apartment door. “She knows I'm here.”
“Yea.” Kris answered as he unlocked the door. “I sort of told her about us.” Kris confessed as he pushed open the apartment door.
“You did......” Adam's words were cut short as he looked up towards the apartment. Inside sat a table in the middle of the room set for two. Candles were placed around the apartment giving the only light in the room and the soft sounds of Kris's voice coming from the cd player filled the room.
“I did. I needed someone to help me set this up.” Kris lead Adam by the hand into the apartment closing the door behind him.
“She knows about us?” Adam's heart was now beating so fast the sound was filling his ears.
“She's been my best friend since we were kids. She knows everything about me.” Kris pulled out one of the chairs at the table for Adam to sit.
“This is weird.” Adam shook in head in disbelief.
“Damn.” Kris said as he stood behind Adam's chair with his hands on the older man's shoulders. Leaning down Kris rested his chin on Adam's shoulder “ And here I was hoping for normal.”
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The music had stopped leaving both men in complete silence. Adam sat on the floor by the fire his back resting against the sofa while Kris sat between his legs his back pressed against Adam's chest. Adam's hand rested lightly on Kris's thighs while his finger tips softly rubbed circles in his jean clad skin.
“We need to get back soon.” Kris's voice filled the silence causing Adam to let out a groan. “I'm sorry but we do.” Kris's hand came up to rub at the back of Adam's head. “They're going to wonder where we are.”
“Don't care.” Adam moaned into Kris's neck. “Forget the tour let just stay here forever.”
“And miss all those screaming fans?”
“Don't care.”
“Yea right. You couldn't live now without anyone screaming for you.”
“I just have to make you scream for me.” Adam let out a wicked laugh as Kris shuddered against him. “And I bet you scream real good.”
“Adam” Kris moaned.
“Where's the bedroom?” Adam pushed Kris forward for him to stand. Kris could only point towards the closed door as he watched Adam approach it.
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Adam had explored many bodies before, tasting then, mapping them out with his tongue but seeing Kris laying out naked on the bed he knew nothing could be better than this. Slowly Adam leant back on his knee's wiping the sweat off his face while Kris lay still on the bed. He wore a worried look on face that Adam knew all about, he had wore it himself many times over the years.
“I won't hurt you.” Adam confessed in a whisper. The room was dark with only a few candles scattered around causing it to flicker over Kris's naked body.
“I know.” Kris replied.
“Try not to worry baby.” Running his finger over the frown Kris wore on his face Adam rubbed at it till the crease was gone.
“I've never done this before.” Kris confessed. Adam's chest became suddenly tight, a crazy feeling of happiness and fear. Happy that he was the only man that got to do this with Kris and fear that by doing this he could scare the younger man away.
“We don't have to do anything.” If Kris wanted to Adam would get dressed and they would leave right now. All he wanted was for Kris to know that he loved him and he was all that mattered.
“Just be gentle.”
“I promise.” Adam whispered leaning down to press his lips over Kris's heart. “I'll take care of you baby.”
Adam's hand began at Kris's shoulders as he straddled his thighs. Gently he rubbed at the bare skin until he felt Kris begin to relax under him. His mouth found Kris's nipple taking it in his mouth sucking hard until Kris let out a low moan before he went onto the other one to gain the same effect. With Adam's mouth wrapped around his nipple Kris's hips came up to thrust into Adam's ass letting him know just how turned on he was was. Adam pulled away sitting up until he was grinding his own erection against Kris's.
“Fuck.” Kris's whole body shuddered at the connection. “That's the most amazing feeling ever.”
“You ain't felt nothing yet baby.” Adam moved down the bed till he was perched in between Kris's thighs.
As slowly as he could Adam bent down till his lips were inches from Kris's pulsing cock. He looked up to see Kris leaning back on his elbows looking at him with bright burning eyes. He gave Adam an encouraging smile and it was all Adam needed before his lips were connecting with his boyfriends hard tip.
“Fuck.” Kris repeated in a strangled scream.
Beginning at the tip and wrapped his wet lips around it sucking slowly and lightly as he looked up and watched his boyfriend come apart. “So beautiful.” Adam mumbled as he let the tip pass over his lips and he took more in.
“Fuck.” Kris gripped at the bed sheets and his eyes fluttered close.
Adam opened his mouth just a little letting the rest of Kris in as his nose brushed against the soft pubic hair. Kris's hands shot into his hair pushing his head deeper against him causing Adam to gag.
Pulling back letting Kris fall out of his mouth with a pop Adam laughed. “Little eager aren't we?”
“Sorry.” Kris looked down at him with a sheepish look on his face.
“Don't be.” Adam sat back up on his knee's as his hands ran over Kris's warm thighs. “But we've hit a problem.”
“Problem?”
“The lack of lube and condom.” Adam sighed.
“Top drawer.” Kris answered with a smirk.
Adam leaned over him opening the drawer at Kris's head. “You planned this?” Adam held the lube and condom in his hand as he looked down at his smiling boyfriend.
“Not planned. Just didn't want to be disappointed of we did do something.”
Adam lay the things to the side as he leaned over Kris. “You're full of surprises Mr Allen.”
“And you love it Mr Lambert”
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Adam pressed into Kris so slow and intimate that Kris found it all too overwhelming but not sore like he thought it would be. Instead of pain he felt a rush of love wash over him. With his legs spread wide and Adam between them Kris could only look down and watch with amazement at what was happening to him. Adam's hands gripped his thighs keeping them open as he gentle slid into him.
“You okay?” Adam panted his whole body tense as he controlled himself fully.
Kris too afraid to speak only nodded and rested his own hands on Adam's knee's as they sat either side of him.
Once he was fully inside Adam stopped all movement. “Just relax and let me stretch you open.” Again Kris only nodded as he watched Adam's face stay concentrated at the task he was doing.
After a few moments of silence Adam circled his hips slightly jolting Kris's body. “Fuck.”
“You okay?” Adam stilled to look down at his boyfriend.
“Yea just do that again.” Kris tried to relax as Adam circled his hips once more.
“Oh fuck.”
“I take it you're ready for me to move?” Adam asked with a smirk as he circled his hips a little faster than before.
“Please” Kris panted moving his hips trying to cause some sort of friction.
The thrusting began slowly with deep loving jolts that sent Kris panting and begging for more. He could see Adam's mouth moving as hovered above him but Kris couldn't make out anything he was saying, the only noise he could hear was the slapping of skin as Adam slammed into him with more force. Through watering eyes Kris watched as Adam's face creased up in what looked like pain but Kris soon realised it was because Adam was holding back.
“Let go baby.” Kris encouraged as he ran his hand over Adam's bare chest.
“Can't.” Adam panted. “You feel too fucking amazing to let this end so soon.” Kris felt Adam slow down as he tried his best to control himself.
“Baby we've got all night.” Kris encouraged. “Come for me.” Kris watched as Adam's eyes fluttered shut only to open moments later.
“I love you so fucking much.” Adam confessed as he began to trust into Kris harder.
Shaking and quivering above him Kris watched in fascination as Adam came undo. With a few more thrusts and a lot of swear words Adam let his hands slip from Kris's thighs as he collapsed on top of him.
“Fuck.” Adam panted into Kris's neck as Kris let his legs wrap around his boyfriends waist pulling him in tight.
“That was amazing.” Kris whispered now only realising he had came himself in the mist of it all.
Adam leaned up on his elbows to look down into Kris's eyes. “To fucking quick.” Shaking his head Adam buried his face back into Kris's face.
“Ah baby.” Kris laughed affectionately rubbing his boyfriends sweaty back. “Best I've ever had.”
“Just wait till next time.” Adam answered teasingly.
End Of Flashback.
“I did not come too quickly.” Adam pouted from the chair in front of Kris's hospital bed.
“You kind of did.” Kris laughed but soon stopped when Adam shot him a look. “Just saying.”
“I was under a lot of pressure. It was your first time and I had spent months jerking off to the idea of sleeping with you. It's a lot for a guy to take.”
Kris climbed off the bed sliding into Adam's lap. “It sure was baby. And I stand by what I said. Best I ever had.”
Adam wrapped his arms around Kris's waist pulling him close. “I made up for the quickness.”
“You sure did baby.” Kris answered kissing the top of his husbands head. “Now didn't you say something about taking me on a date.” | |
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| Subject: Re: Working Through Wed Nov 11, 2009 1:07 pm | |
| Chapter Ten
He had only been home an hour when his phone beeped telling him to get back hospital as soon as possible. By the time Adam got Sophia and all of her belongings in the car it was another hour before he walked back into Kris's hospital room to find Kris surrounded by doctors.
“What's going on?” Adam looked to the doctors then at Kris for an answer.
“Why are you doing this to me.” Kris asked frantically. “Why are you letting them keep me here.”
“Kris?” Adam could see Kris was in distress but didn't know why. When he had left the hospital earlier Kris had been happily chatting with his mother. “Baby what's the matter.” Adam approached his husband slowly.
“I woke up here and I didn't know why. They won't tell me why.” Kris gripped at Adam's sleeves pulling him in as close as he could. He wore a scared look on his face and Adam could tell he had been crying.
“Baby you're sick.” Adam explained softly. “You just need to rest.” Adam ran his free hand over Kris's face wiping away the stray tears while his other hand held Sophia close to him.
“But you weren't here. I woke up and you weren't here.” Kris choked out. “I was scared.”
“Ah baby. Don't be scared. I got you.” Adam held onto Kris tight as he looked towards the doctors for an answer.
“This is very common Mr Lambert.”
“Could you.” Adam nodded towards the door asking the doctors surrounding them to leave.
One by one the doctors filtered out the room until it was only Kris and Adam alone with a sleeping Sophia between them.
“Are you okay now?” Adam pulled back just enough to look into his husbands eyes.
“I don't know what's happening to me.” Kris explained as he tried his best to snuggled back against Adam's chest.
“You're just sick baby.” Adam explained allowing him to get as close as he wanted. “It'll all work out soon.”
“Everything feels mixed. Like it's all backwards.”
“It's just because of the accident.” Adam explained as Kris's face finally showed signs of it all coming back.
“The accident” Kris sighed. “I forgot about that.”
Adam tried to keep the smile off his face but one look at Kris and his face widened. “You're funny sometimes.”
“I think I missed you.”
“You think?” Adam quizzed.
“Well I don't remember do I.”
“Okay Okay. I said you were funny. No need to try and prove it.” Adam pulled away far enough for Kris to finally see Sophia laying in his arms. “Hope you didn't forget her.”
“Not a chance in hell.” Kris wiggled his fingers motioning for Adam to give him Sophia.
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“When am I getting out of here.” Kris lay back on his bed with Sophia against his chest. Her little fingers spread open and shut over his heart.
“A few more days yet baby.” Adam explained from his usual seat next to the bed.
“A few more days and I'll go insane.” Kris explained with a sigh. “It's so fucking boring here.”
“Language Kris.” Kris's head shot up to see his mother standing at the room door. “You're not too old to be put over my knee.” Cringing with embarrassment Kris tried to cover his face before the blushing start but was too late Adam was already smirking at him.
“And you can get that silly grin off your face too Adam, You're not too big either.”
“You don't scare me.” Adam said while pushing his chair just a little closer to Kris. “Much.” He added as his mother in law approached him.
“Like hell I don't.” Mrs Allen mumbled to herself.
“Language Mama” Kris said with a laugh.
“Yea Mama language.” Adam added.
“You spend way to much time together.” Mrs Allen commented.
“Never.” Adam said pulling Kris in for a kiss.
“Never?” Mrs Allen quizzed. “Not even during the Idol tour. All those days and nights on that bus, you must have drove each other crazy.”
“Of course not.”
“Oh we did.” Kris laughed.
“Did not.”
“Adam remember Boston?” Adam winced at the mention of Boston.
“Oh yea. Boston.”
Flashback
“Oh Fuck.” Kris's head shot off his pillow in the bunk as he heard his boyfriend ever loud voice fill the bunk above him.
“Adam?”
“Adam Lambert you pervert.” Meg came bounding on the bus her phone waving in the air. “Is this your idea of a joke?”
“Meg?” Kris poked his head out of his bunk to be met by Meg's legs as she tried to climb into Adam's bunk.
“I swear you weren't meant to see that.” Adam tried his best to keep Meg out his bunk but the angry blonde was just too mad to be stopped.
“I wasn't meant to see? You sent it to my phone.”
“Sent what?” Kris quizzed only to be bumped in the head by Meg's knee. “Oww.”
“I swear Meg I sent it to the wrong phone. I Promise it wasn't for you.” Adam said in a mixture of fear and amusement.
“Well be more careful next time.” Meg stormed off this bus just as quick as he came leaving behind a very confused Kris and a very silent Adam.
“What did you do?” Kris quizzed from his bunk.
“Nothing.” Came Adam's mumbled reply.
Kris took the rare opportunity of everyone being out of the bus to answer his boyfriend. “Baby just tell me or I'll go ask Meg.”
“Kris.” Adam said threw gritted teeth.
“Relax. Everyone went out to eat.”
“So we're alone?” Kris could hear the smirk he knew Adam was wearing.
“Yes but they could come back at any moment. So spill. What did you sent Meg.” Kris watched as Adam's jean clad legs came swinging over his bunk and into Kris's. Handing Kris his phone Adam squeezed into the back of his bunk pulling the curtain back to enclose them in. Kris studied the picture on the phone closely. “What is this..... oh my god no.”
“Yep.” Adam laughed.
“But that's your.” Kris turned the phone in different angles until he found one that had the best view.
“That is my......”
“Oh my god.” Kris moaned. “Why would you sent Meg a picture of your.” Kris stopped, pointing down at Adam's jeans.
“It wasn't for her.”
“Well who was it.....” Adam raised an eyebrow at his boyfriend causing him to let out another moan. “Adam. Why. Why would you sent me a picture of your penis.” He was acting horrified by it all but Kris couldn't stop looking at the picture.
“To let you know I was horny.” Adam said matter of fact like it was the most normal thing in the world.
“To let me know you were.....” Kris shook his head. “Yea I have no answer for that.”
Adam grabbed his phone back pushing it into his back pocket. “Yea well you won't want me to sent it to your phone then won't you?”
“No I do not. My mother looks at my phone. She does not need to see that.”
“Of course not.” Adam answered with a smile. “We wouldn't want her innocent eyes to see that.”
“You're not funny.” Kris pouted. “Now give me back your phone.” Kris tried to grab at Adam's back pocket but the taller man easily wiggled away from him till he was down the other end of the bunk.
“Why?”
“Cause I don't want a picture of a naked.....” He wanted to say cock but it really wasn't in him. “Penis on your phone.”
“But it's my naked cock.” Adam said with no problem. “Now if it was a picture of your cock.” Adam teased running his hand up Kris's thigh to cup him gently.
Kris pulled back the curtain of the bunk pushing himself out so fast he landed on his butt in the middle of the floor. “Yea I got to go.”
“Go?”
“Yea. I mean here we are in Boston and all you want to do is lay in the bunks all day. I want to sight see. I'll see you later.” Kris bolted from the bus causing Adam to follow closely behind.
“Hey wait up. I'll come.” Adam caught onto Kris's arm pulling him to a stop outside the tour bus.
“Yea actually maybe we should have a day off.” Kris rubbed at the back of his neck letting Adam know the nerves were setting in.
“But this is our day off.”
“Yea I mean.”
Adam finally caught up with Kris's meaning. “You mean we need a day off. Like from each other.”
“That's not what I meant.” Kris tried to explain but Adam only shook his head.
“Hey, I get it.” Getting as close as he could Adam leaned down till his mouth pressed against his boyfriends ear. “Absence makes the heart grew fonder.”
Kris pulled back smiling. “I love you. And if I could I would kiss you.”
Adam looked around the empty car park before leaning in again. “And what's stopping you?”
Kris's face paled at Adam's words causing him to shake his head and back away. “Adam”
“Hey I'm joking. I know public affection is out of the question right now.” Adam pulled Kris in by the arm again pressing his mouth to his ear. “But when it's not out of the question I'm going to find a dark back alley and fuck you against a dirty wall.” Adam stood back with a smile on his face. “See you after the sight seeing.” He pushed Kris a little till the smaller man stumbled back a few steps.
End Of Flashback
“What happened in Boston?” Mr Allen asked with a smile on her face.
“Nothing” Kris and Adam snapped at the same time.
Kris's face was beetroot red as he remembered back to the first time Adam and he had talked so openly with each other. When Adam suggested that he could have a picture of Kris on his phone it had freaked Kris out so much all he wanted to do was run away. His freaking out didn't last long and Adam did manage to get that picture after all. Not that Kris would admit it was him if anyone ever saw it. It could easily be put down to Adam being a pervert. Kris knew Meg would back him up if he needed it. | |
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| Subject: Re: Working Through Wed Nov 11, 2009 1:08 pm | |
| Chapter Eleven
Flashback
Adam didn't know if he should celebrate or cry. It was the last night of the tour and he would wake up tomorrow morning with everything changed. There would be no more tour bus no more thousands of screaming fans waiting for him to walk out of a building and there would be no more waking up to Kris. The were unofficially a couple no one but each other knew about them and with Kris being the American Idol his days would be filled with recordings and interviews Adam didn't know if there would be time for anything else. Now as he stood on the stage the lights up and the fans spilling out of the doors Adam watched as Kris stood at the edge of the stage shaking the hands of the stage crew he worried for their future. As if reading his mind Kris looked up giving Adam a small smile that was only really reserved for him and each time Kris gave it to him Adam fell just a little bit more in love.
“So what's the plan Lambert?” Adam turned to see Anoop standing behind him. His relationship with Anoop had always confused Adam. At times they could alone in a room and having nothing to say but other times they could talk endlessly about things people wouldn't think Adam should know about.
“Get drunk I guess.” Adam shrugged returning his attention towards Kris who was now slipping his arms back into Adam's leather jacket. When Adam had joined Kris under the stage for their last ever time he was shocked to see Kris dressed in his leather jacket. He looked good in it even if it was a little big on him.
“I meant with Kris.” Anoop pointed towards the shorter man.
“He's off to light up the world I guess.”
“He looks like he's already doing that for you.” Anoop pointed out giving Adam a knowing look that Adam knew meant they were caught.
“We really that obvious?”
Anoop shook his head walking closer to Adam. “I like to people watch. You keep your mouth shut long enough you get to see what's going on.”
“And how long have you known?” Adam watched as Kris hugged Meg before being pulled away by Matt.
“Probably long before you even knew.” Anoop put his hand on Adam's shoulder to get his attention. “So what's the plan?”
“Wish I knew.” Adam sighed.
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Adam didn't care that it was three in the morning and the crew were beginning to get annoyed at them for not leaving, he was staying until he wrapped his arms around ever last person and told them exactly what he thought of them. Right now he was in deep conversation with Meg at the front of one of the buses talking about when they would see each other again.
“I mean it Adam you better keep in touch. I know how to stalk you know.” Meg warned Adam with a smile.
“I know I know.” Adam laughed. “And I promise I love you too much not to.” Adam felt a pair of warm hands run along his back, a chin resting lightly on his shoulder.
“I bet he's been saying that to everyone tonight.” Kris stood on his tip toes to peek at Meg over Adam's shoulder.
“Only the pretty ones.” Adam allowed his body to press against Kris's just enough not to bring any attention towards them.
“I bet.” Kris replied with a smirk.
Meg soon gave up trying to keep Adam all to herself and left the two men alone. As the crowd around them soon filtered away Adam kept his back to Kris and allowed the younger man to hold him from behind.
“I guess this is it.” Adam said sadly as he looked up towards the nights sky.
“Now you become the superstar you're supposed to be.” Kris slipped his hand into Adam's jacket rubbing his thumb over the older man's warm stomach.
“I hate saying goodbye.” Adam admitted quietly. He could feel Kris nod his head in agreement. “I've said too many goodbyes tonight.” The bus in front of them started up with a roar from the engine. Adam's body jolted causing Kris to grip him tighter.
“It's not forever.” Kris whispered in his ear. “There's always twitter.”
Adam could feel the tears come to his eyes. “That's not enough. I want every day. Not ten words every few days.”
“Well you better start selling those albums and make enough money to buy a big house to keep them all in.” Kris said with a smirk.
“Them?” Adam asked in confusion.
“The other Idol's.” Kris replied. The second bus started up following the first out of the car park leaving behind only two black cars.
“I'm not talking about them. I'm talking about us.” Adam turned to look at Kris. “I can handle saying goodbye to them. I just don't want to say goodbye to us.” Adam hated admitting just how much he needed Kris. He had never needed anyone before in his life but now this little cute guy had came along and screwed everything up. Now he needed something like he needed air.
“And where are we going?” Kris pulled Adam closer as one of the black cars slowly drove past them. Adam watched the car with a confused look on his face causing Kris to laugh. “There's an us in this world now. “Kris pulled Adam's chin until he was looking down at him. “And we don't say goodbye.” The last of the black cars pulled to a stop beside them. “We might say see you soon, but not tonight.” Kris opened the back door open for Adam to climb in.
End Of Flashback
“And we've never said goodbye. Not once.” Adam finished his story looking down at Sophia asleep in his arms. “I think I bored her.”
“Don't stop.” Kris lay back on the hospital bed lazily running his fingers through Sophia's hair. “I want to hear the end of the story.”
“But you were there. You know how it ends.” Adam smiled.
“But I want to remember.” Kris pouted.
“You can remember.” Adam laughed. “It's short term memory lose you have. Don't put on the sympathy act.” Adam warned.
“But I like how you remember it. You always remember our past better.”
“You just want to hear my voice.”
“It is an amazing voice.” Kris admitted causing Adam to laugh.
“Fine. I'll tell it.” Placing Sophia into her car seat Adam leaned over in his chair to rest his head on Kris's chest. “Once apon a time.”
“Shut up.” Kris laughed slapping Adam playfully. “Just tell it.”
“Fine.”
Flashback
Kris thanked the driver before turning back to Adam as they both stood outside a tall building in the middle of La.
“Okay why are we outside a recording studio.” Adam looked down toward his smiling boyfriend.
“How do you know this is a recording studio?” Kris pouted. He'd wanted this to be a surprise.
“Cause I live in this town. I know everything.” Adam answered smugly.
“Damn”
“And it says it on that sign over there.” Adam pointed towards the large sign on the door.
“Damn.” Kris repeated. “Yea okay we're at a recording studio.”
Adam looked around him. “I see that. But why?” Following Kris into the building Adam asked again. “Seriously why are we here?”
“I was thinking all week about how this is the end of the tour and the whole Idol thing and I wanted to end it in a good way. End it without really ending it.” Kris babbled on till they were standing in a dark recording room alone.
“I didn't understand a word of that.” Adam admitted. “Seriously. I know you were talking English but what the fuck?”
Kris grabbed his boyfriends hand pulling him down onto the sofa in the corner of the room. “I just.” Kris shook his head with a small smile on his face. “You're so much better at this talking thing than I am.”
“Just tell me what you feel.” Adam suggested holding onto his hands.
Kris looked ahead too afraid to look at Adam in case he fell apart. “I feel this rush of love when I think of you and If you're in the room I feel this over whelming feeling of need for you. And if you touch me I feel like I'm seconds from exploding like I'm going to leap from my own body because the feelings I have are too strong for one person.”
Adam swallowed the lump in his throat as he look at his boyfriend. “I love you too.” Adam admitted quietly. The room was dark around them the only light coming from the corridor and Kris was thankful for this. He knew if Adam could see him clearly he wouldn't be able to talk so openly.
“When I fell in love with Katy I thought this is amazing. This cute little blond that loves me and wants me. It was all so calming and comforting.” Kris shook his head. “And then I met you.”
“Dun dun dun.” The room was so thick with tension Adam done the only thing he could think of to cut it. And it worked. Kris let out a laugh and nodded.
“Exactly. You just came in all crazy and wild and so dangerous. I thought you were this bad boy with the wild hair and make up. You frightened me to begin with. I kept thinking that you would turn into this dangerous man that would corrupt me.” Adam let out a laugh causing Kris to nudge him. “And you did. In the best way possible. And I fell in love. Fell so hard that even Katy saw it. I tried so hard to hide it but my wife saw how much in love I was. I was overflowing with feeling for you.”
Adam slid over just a little until his side was pressed against Kris's. “Wish I could have seen it sooner.”
“We got there in the end.” Kris admitted.
“It got us to here.” Adam said pointing towards the recording booth. “But why?”
“Well.” Said Kris standing to switch on the machines in front of him. “All those feeling running through me come out in different ways. Usually they come out in the affection I show you. But I was want a bigger audience now.”
Adam raised an eyebrow at his boyfriend as he stood to stand in front of him. “You want to make a sex tape or something?”
Kris only rolled his eyes. “Always about the sex. No I don't want to show them that much. I was thinking maybe a duet.” With a click of a switch the whole recording studio lit up showing a piano in the middle of the room and a mic stand sitting next to it.
“You want to record a song with me?” Adam's face spread into a wide smile as Kris nodded. “I get to sing with the American Idol?”
“Shut up.” Kris laughed. “I just thought what a perfect way to end the tour with than to start something new.”
“Ending with a beginning?” Adam asked.
“Exactly.” Kris smiled.
End Of Flashback.
“See” Kris said. “You always make the stories sound so much better.”
“That really was the perfect night.” Adam sighed.
“To bad we can't let Sophia hear what came out of that recording session.” Kris laughed as Adam blushed.
“I just can't believe you thought we could spend the whole night alone in a room together and record anything.” Adam laughed.
“We recorded something.” Kris reminded his boyfriend only to have Adam shake his head.
“I don't think the sound of us having sex is what you had in mind for that night.”
“Best duet I can think of.” Kris shrugged.
“True.” Adam agreed. “Maybe I could put it on my next album.” Adam jumped back dodging Kris's swinging hand.
“Not funny Lambert.”
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Adam and Kris sat side by side on the hospital bed as the doctor stood in front of them holding onto a clip board. Adam's eyes never left the doctors face as he watched him study the notes in his hands. He held his husbands hand in his own letting it rest on the bed between them. Kris was surprisingly calm as he waited for the doctor to reveal the test results to them, Adam only wished he could be so calm.
“Man you're a slow reader doc.” Adam asked feeling an elbow to his ribs as Kris looked at him disapprovingly.
“Just making sure I get everything Mr Lambert.” The doctor smiled closing over the clip board.
“Sorry Doctor. My husband.” Kris looked at Adam smiling sheepishly back at him. “Well he doesn't have a filter.” Kris apologised while giving Adam a dirty look. Adam only shrugged his shoulders not caring how rude he sounded.
“Your husband's been quite the patient man Mr Allen. I don't think I've seen any one so dedicated to their loved one quite like Mr Lambert here.”
Adam smiled smugly at his husband. “See. dedicated husband.” He said pointing to himself.
“And I love you for it.” Kris leaned in stealing a quick kiss before turning back to the doctor. “When can I go home cause this place is pissing me off”
“And you say I've no filter?” Adam asked raising an eyebrow.
“Well Mr Allen looking at your test results I would say now.”
“Now?” Adam and Kris asked at the same time.
“Right now.” The doctor smiled. | |
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